"Time was not created with the power to hold you back. And if the future terrifies you, then just take it one moment at a time."~ Raphael McManus
Just Write...
That's right. I don't have any specific topic to share tonight. My mind is racing; my heart is pounding...clamoring for 500 words. A deadline to meet each night. I'm afraid there's a missing substance in my writing these days. You can't fully unmask or strip yourself--baring your soul unto a page before retiring to bed is a challenge.
So if you guys don't mind I'll just write what pops my mind with little scrutiny and clumsiness. I know you don't deserve reading a blog that is written in mediocrity but with honesty.
So this morning around 11 am, I went for a jog with my fabulous dog, named Cocoa. We skipped for a week now because of the 21 Fast. I wouldn't risk jogging when my body won't be on its optimal performance. I want to do exercise; body & soul. You can't really get the adrenalin and the endorphin going in & out of your system if your body is not in 100% capacity to perform.
Although I do a lot of mini-exercises at home like climbing up and down the stairs to do laundry, and playing with my Labs outside and in the house; doing general household chores don't compare the energy I get in walking. But anyway, just two more weeks and I'll be done with fasting and I'll be enjoying the great outdoors again.
Do you ever experience low moments in your days even when you're trying to fight and make every moment count or productive? Are there some moments and pauses in your life when what is left for you to do is just stare and think mindlessly--letting those moments pass you by with nothing to offer. This is just one of those days for me today. I felt like doing nothing so I just curled up to my bed and took a long afternoon nap. I didn't actually nap the whole time.I just stayed in bed listening to nature sounds from my radio. They're supposed to be soothing and inviting you to sleep but it didn't happen. No daydreams either. What a day I thought...
Now I'm done rationalizing what prompted me to stay in bed. I didn't even feel like reading any material in my Kindle Fire. Plain & simple; just rest my mind. I want my mind to be an empty vacuum that is free from absorbing any information. I know that's weird and the contrast for quintessential but it happens. Anyway I still have two days to recover the wonderment of time since we're off this Monday.
After dinner which consisted of black beans with steak on it and fried "tilapia" and simmering chamomile tea, I decided to watch In Touch by Charles Stanley. On his message, I gathered that we can never experience wholeness not until you ask God to show us what's wrong with us and let Him restore us from our brokenness. We could be all sharing and preaching the Word of God but in truth, we're still in bondage of something that has never been acknowledged to be wrong. Most of the times we do pray to God for the wrong petitions in out lives. We can't even articulate it right.
We all are still learning...
Thank you for reading & for putting up with me...You guys take care & God Bless
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