"Taking Full Responsibility for our Own Actions"

" Taking Full Responsibility For Our Actions..."

We all did it. Conscientiously... I'm talking about situations and we're rendered two choices; disobedience to do the God- thing or obedience to your carnal desires. And sometimes we even play them both squarely. In the Biblical way, that's being lukewarm that is: you're serving two masters--you're playing games with idolatry. 

For me, timing and waiting were my big proponents to understanding life after divorce. Perfect timing  was never on my side; all it seems that my mind has gathered is waiting. For all I know, I've missed pivotal cues because I was hovered with unforgiveness and blame in my heart. It doesn't bother me now to talk about it for God had delivered me from it.

Dispensation of pride inappropriately in your life makes you not see the lesson from every relationship you've been through. You rationalize until blaming the other person is the only thing left for you to do. It felt right to justify that kind on thinking when you're self-absorbed. Taking full responsibility for what needs to be done after divorce was the most challenging chapter of my life. I had to learn how to betray all the emotions raging in me; settling them in my brain. I made a pact to myself that my two sons are going to be nurtured with my love & commitment to raise them as my labor--to love & life.

I don't remember a moment that the grace of God wasn't upon me. The Lord has been and will always be my sole provider of all things that I need. The spirit of the Lord was my highest counselor when I needed His presence during parent-teacher conferences. My youngest son was the one that was affected with the perils of our divorce with his dad. He was only 9 1/2 at that time. Didn't deserve to be confused. I tell you, all the best things in me as a mother and as a human being, I gave it to that child, to both of them...
  I still remember the countless hours when I had to teach my boys how to drive. Getting their license was a breeze but driving a vehicle away from home each time poses threat to my health. Thank God Almighty, they're both excellent drivers with good records to support it.

I take courage upon God's working on my behalf. Without the support of my family and some good friends of mine, I would have lost it big time. After all, I was promised to never walk alone in this journey. Somehow I knew who I am with God in the midst of a storm and carried me  through year after year.
 "Out of sufferings, I emerged as a strong soul and  aware that many more challenges to come my way...And with the pent-up emotions I bottled somewhere in my mind had long been disintegrated. I may have shed a reservoir of tears and questions unanswered but the power of love & dedication to my children are my greatest pillar whom I draw fresh breath of inspiration. When you want to win some in this life...it better be in the full investment of bringing up your children in the eyes of the Lord. They may depart from it for a season but in the end, God's love prevails. It always does. No need to worry!

"Lord...bless me the gift of faith to be renewed and shared with others each day. Teach me to live this moment only, looking neither to the past with regret, nor the future with apprehension. let love be my aim and my life a prayer.
Let my soul take refuge...beneath the shadow of Your wings: let my heart, this sea of restless waves, find peace in you, O God, in whom I trust.

As always, thanks for reading and you guys, take care. God Bless