Rejoice, Jesus is Alive...Happy Easter

 

Setting Our Hearts To Familiar Thresholds...

 Waking up at 4 am. on a Saturday morning today is not consistent with what my heart desires which is staying in bed till 6:30, at least. But sometimes we don't know why we can't just go back under the blanket and may be dream a sequel of the one that was disturbed by your waking up... wishful thinking!

I didn't read a book to tire my eyes and calm my senses just to go back to sleep. Then it dawned on me it's April first--meaning I have to deepen an activity for the rest of the month. I have to create a pie graph that would account my high and low energy performance. How much I am slacking with time, my productivity flow and how it yields to a greater value of my words and actions for that's the way I could be better in living a life of good stewardship.

Haven't posted a while for I was madly busy entertaining my own guilt and shame for having allowed myself  gained more than ten lbs. I'm not comfortable about it but It's harder to do something about it when you're older. The dynamic of everything we do when we're past 50 is an ordeal. Sometimes I think I just have to let my body grow heavy because that's what happens as the pangs of aging hits us. But anyway gaining weight is just one problem but it compounds with having diabetes, high blood pressure ,and my most dreadful one to having is Alzheimer's disease. It's a senseless life if you got it. But thank God I'm good.

Well, so this first day of April I chose to make amends to all those times I watched a lot of Netflix movies and documentaries. At one time I watched 12 episodes in one day for the movie, The Ozarks." Shame on me but I should have contained myself, disciplined my actions.

I'm doing better now. My goal is to get back to being proactive, walk vigorously again. I miss walking on different trails like when Cocoa and Tootsie were still my companion dogs. I slowed down when they were gone; my energy is not up to par as I used to. However, I will get over all these distractions and refrain myself from activities that do not yield intrinsic value.

I will go back to taking baby steps till I reach that level of maturity to love myself again by renewing my mind and heart...Life happens. 

God is good .All the time!