The following quote by Oliver Wendell Holmes is a precursor to my "take- aways" this year.
"To reach a port we must sail, sometimes with the wind, and sometimes against it. But we must not drift or lie at anchor."
This year has been an avatar ride. I gave myself permission to be a major proponent to alter my ego on building relationships. One day I just felt my life is all a jumble. My pie chart and bucket list for connecting and re-connecting with people stifled my personal growth. My "flip-flopping" emerges a lot when my expectations of people that I know can sail with me for the long haul just drift. I thought some people are just not cognizant and lacking the right perspective of my value as a woman of creativity and sensibility. I could be right on a target.
Giving your heart away to every relationship whether in friendship or romance and still didn't work out is a divine providence. You can't make people to love you the way you want to if they're not even capable of true reciprocity. They're not your anchor; just vessels for lessons learned. Don't stay in your present circumstances. Leave your safe harbor or niche. Be fearless and yet be thoughtful in leaving things behind. Go where God wants you.
I learned that what you make out of life is based on making wise
decisions. Never let anyone put you as an option or the last recourse.
That would be a heart's transgression if you allow people you love
settling you as a" second fiddle or a third wheel." Know your worth.
Demand it with grace. I for one believe in setting ultimatums; and
boundaries. Don't drift from your real values. You would be happy to
realize that your greatest inspiration is staying true to sacred ground.
Chastity, not being compromised. God honors your obedience of His Word.
IN life, nothing is guaranteed; I've heard and seen so many people who have perished this year which has caused me to move my heart inwardly to a fresh take on living...and my mind, too!
What would I answer to God when He finally asks me what have I done with my life on earth for His kingdom. That would be the absolute "kicker" for me. And it is shameful to say that I haven't been what I'm supposed to be. That I know I could do more but decided just sailing endlessly because some people failed me audaciously. I just hope and pray that I get there to that glorious day with God's grace & mercy.
Well, I'll be more passionate and logistic about writing and choosing people to ride with me "on the same boat." My avatar for filling the pages with words and humanity will be in consonance with what the Lord puts in the spirit of hope, and the wonders of His love in my craft and in my heart.
I can't thank you guys enough for reading my posts.
A blessed, productive Monday, everyone!