"My Jehovah Rapha"

Today, October 6, 2017, is my beloved Tootsie's 11th birthday.
I took a day off so I could take her to the Vet to get that growing lump on her left side
checked and also spend the whole day with her.
So the cytology/aspirate shows cells highly suspicious for cancer. Surgical removal is recommended the earliest possible. 
Only those who have lost a precious dog or precious pets to cancer can know the gaping hole and the heartache I am experiencing right at this very moment. However, I believe that God's grace and healing power be upon Tootsie once again. God, my Jehovah Rapha, the Healer.

If there's one prayer that I would desperately ask God to answer, is for Tootsie to live 7 more years of healthy and a happy life with me. 
All day I couldn't stop tearing up... I couldn't imagine my life without her love and loyalty and sweet idiosyncracies. 

At the Vet's waiting room. Asked the vet's asst. to take a snapshot of me & Tootsie.

Add caption

Tootsie waiting for the visit to be over and done with so she can get out of there and go to the park nearby. Judging by the way she moves, you can't tell she has some health concerns. She loves the outdoors. Just like me, she's so good in walking. She can outrun me in the park. She's an excellent companion, my guard protector, and my muse when I need to pour out what's hovering my mind and quiet them solely for my sake.
I love you, Tootsie.
You are Beautiful and I will marvel every moment with you.

Hello, Autumn... Ecclesiastes 3:11

The long Pause of not Writing is coming out of me. I don't know why I let my words dried up and bottled them up and not fought enough to get them lined up on a page...So, where do I start?

Thank You to my faithful readers. I'm in awe of such loyalty that I don't deserve. Believe me, there were countless times I wanted to write but my phrases were out of touch that even myself is left numb and querying about life being so cold and void. I go to bed at night longing for some magical dreams to put me to sleep. That never happened. Instead, my dreams were horrid and perplexed. I'm certain that these dreams don't reflect anything deeper like there might be some unforgiveness on my part or some people I need to reconcile with.

Well, I'm here now...fully present with my thoughts.
Yesterday, I took my Tootsie to go for a walk @ Lion's Park. She walked a mile with 2 shortstops on the side trail. She inspires me to keep going, reminding me that walking will always be fun for us. We may have had slowed down together because of mild arthritis and some other aging incapacities but these should not deter us from doing what we love. I kind of miss that period of time when I can do 6 miles a day but now just a third of that. Again, that's the flesh talking to me. I'm learning to shut my thoughts down when the flesh tries to manipulate me.
Then I took my other Labrador, Cocoa to walk on another trail. This one is much closer to my home. This place is new to both of us. There's  pond of many ducks just cooing and swimming while some geese were just frolicking on the grass area. What a beautiful sight. I needed that. For Cocoa, too. Wow. I walked both of my dogs one after the other, on the same morning. Can't walk both of them. They don't get along. At home, they have separate quarters and I do switch them responsibly so they won't kill each other.
I'm also taking American Sign Language Free Course for a year offered by the school district.
I took it for it would be very beneficial to be able to communicate with children of hearing impairment. It's a lovely thing to be skilled in something you never imagined you would be involved with signing with your hands for oral communication.
Lord God, I need your divine grace to be a good vessel in transforming hearts...
I don't want to do anything that is not from your throne. Help me to have the right discernment, your anointing, your revelations in my life and the wisdom to live the truth according to your glory and grace.

Cocoa's 12th Birthday...

Today my mind will be devoid of anything that would curtail celebrating 12 wonderful years (and much more I pray) of her life with me. I know Cocoa is just a dog but her loyalty, love, and quirkiness all these years have my soul falling in a better place. Those who truly love their dogs heartily know what I mean...
So what best way to celebrate Cocoa Today is to take her for a morning walk to Carl Levin Park where we first had our scores of miles we both championed together in our own creative ways.
I know that he wanted to show off and wanted to walk more but I knew her limit now is just a mile. Her legs start to grow weaker and panting more if we continued...That's okay. Life is like that even with us humans. There are things that we can't do anymore in every stages or season in our lives.

                          @ Petsmart. Got her a new collar and a beef treat. She's not much of a cake or a pie dog. 

Add caption

We both were tired after the walk, Petsmart and visiting grandma. She captivated my heart. Love this dog a lot... 

Add caption

My mom talking to Cocoa and she's listening in...

"Let The Power Of Freedom And Faith In The Creator Triumphs In Our Hearts..."

I Believe in God's sovereignty in restoring and developing "the character" or integrity that we must have so he can work in us to be good ambassadors of the message of the Cross.

It is hard to be a sound vessel of his Word. A plethora of disputable beliefs, doctrines, masks of deceptions and agendas and propagandas luring us to be one of them. Their visibility is constantly playing our minds by broadcasting news that has been tainted and books/manuscripts written to confuse us. If we're not steadfast with what the Bible says, we'll be in the dominion of sin. And everlasting hell is as real as eternal Life in Heaven.

 But glory to God, his precious blood that was shed at Calvary Cross nailed and bore every sickness, illness, and iniquities in our lives. I know this seems unfathomable that God loves us so much that he gave us his most precious son, Jesus, but it's true. 
It would really grieve the Holy Spirit, our Comforter if we don't even know how to access all the promises that God has gifted us. 
I am like many of you still stumbles when I don't have the proper wisdom, discernment, revelation, and anointing of the Lord Jesus.
But I do know that in my life, God has been and will always be the absolute Agape Love. 

Let's not forget the true meaning of freedom: It is only found in the presence of God. Without the Spirit of the Lord guiding us (if we desire), there's no way we make it Heaven's door. Remember the great story of Noah's Ark. The door was divinely shut. It was too late! 
I pray that History doesn't repeat itself...

James1:12 KJV
Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.

Thanking God...Blessed his Holy name.

Jerry Savalle's Powerful Preaching Tonight @ Belton Christian Center...

 Jerry Savalle shaking hands with the church congregation after blessing us with a sermon
we needed to carry in our hearts. You can actually watch and listen to him
@ BVOVN with the Copeland Ministries.
I thank God for tonight's message that revolves around Proverb 29:18 KJV
"Where there is no vision, the people perish; but he that keepeth the law, happy is he.

I did not expect Jerry Savalle to be preaching in a small church with just about 47-50 people sitting in the pew. Maybe because it's a Friday night and many people have gone out of town for the Memorial Day weekend. It's also the last school day for children in Central TexasSchool
Districts. But anyway, I and my two good friends were so thankful for coming to hear him preach the prophetic word.
As Christ's believers (as he explained) God has a prophetic word on each of us. Wea re the righteousness of God. "We need to keep the word before us; read it often as an affirmation, confess it daily, decree it, thank God in advance always and keep sowing your seeds for his kingdom."
We do not rely on what we see or hear for they corrupt our flesh which
affect our faith. We need to pray for God's anointed wisdom in all of our endeavors.
We do not give up nor compromise our Christian values and doctrines because God's
will in our lives surely come to pass. While waiting, we pray, we do the things that please God.
It may take a decade or twice that but we can never go wrong when we're at his will.
Thank God for a marvelous school year and the best is yet to come.
Let's declare that in good faith.
                                                               

Graciously welcomed us to have these snapshots with him.Add caption

MercyMe - Even If (Official Lyric Video)

"Right now" is just a perfect moment to enjoy listening to Mercy Me's rendition
of their beautiful song, "Even If."
Our Hope is in you Alone, Lord...
It is well with my heart and soul.
Thank You Lord Jesus!

"God Is My Refuge" Women's March Conference

If I could speak for all the women that attended the conference, there's no denying that the primary "take away" is the wisdom that Debra in the book of Judges represents. I call it relative hierarchy in position but in God's eyes, it is the spiritual sense of order. However, it is not easy for some of us to claim and stand on how God sees us first and manifest that if we don't even know what our specific calling is. Not operating under the anointing of our gifting will leave us perplexed, unsatisfied, vacillating, and unsure.

No wonder that we sometimes displace our worthiness and righteousness to substance abuse, to junk food, to associating with unequally yoked people, and oftentimes succumb to men's cloak raiments if you know what I mean...

BUT...with God and with the help of godly people, we learn how to sharpen our instincts and use it wisely in all circumstances. We can smell from afar the devices that the enemy employs upon us. We have the Word of God that is sharper that the two-edged sword and it pierces the soul. 

What a real gift that is to be known as spiritual daughters of the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.We just have to pray steadfastly with a grateful heart and that nothing can ever define us except to how God sees us, a masterpiece!

Thank You Lord for reminding us that our life is identified with you first; and that you loved us first, unconditionally.

It never ceases to amaze me what a grander scale fellowshipping means spiritually--(1st night of the women's conference)Add caption

Here we go on the second night of the women's conference; same background and a more subtle/reserved smile.

Another special way of paying tribute to ourselves--enjoying one another's giftings
and callings with the Grace of God. (last day of the women's conference)

Just me and my good friend Senaida heading to check Jamie Lipe's music...Add caption

AddGo check out Jamie Lipe's music. She sings beautifully. It definitely ushers you to worship in the spirit realm... caption